first post

First off the GOOD news...
Tonight we finished our adoption blog! The button with our picture that says "Hoping to Adopt" will take you there! Or clickhere! 

We are very excited about it. Hopefully word will get out and we will be blessed by adoption sometime in this wonderful new year!

Hopes for the new year

1) Get approved through LDSFS to adopt a baby.

2) ADOPT and bring one of our children home with us. 

3) Feel more joy and be happier.

4) Finish Kellen's scrapbook.

5) Do well in School and get into the nursing program.

We are not approved to adopt through the agency yet because the paperwork takes FOREVER. However, if we were contacted privately we would not need agency acceptance, we would just need to be approved by the birth parents and get legal paperwork and fees taken care of. That is why we published our blog early.

(Speaking of new years...ours was spent with both of us slightly sick. We bought some unhealthy snacks, rented a movie, and got in our pjs early. We watched a movie, played wii, remembered to watch the ball 10 minutes before, watched it drop. Gave mini kisses (big kisses aren't hot when you are sick...even on New Years!) then went to sleep. We are WILD I tell you. Maybe next year right!

And now..the disgusted part.

I received an email today from a name I did not recognize. It told me to check my email I have on this blog because there was something I should see. I figured it was probably spam, but checked anyway.

I found this message

"There is a very sick woman in Oak Harbor Ohio that is posting your pictures and saying they are hers. This includes the pictures of your baby that you recently lost. I just thought that you would like to know and maybe you can do something about it. Here is a link to her facebook page...."

He then led me to her page.

This was no joke.

There was a picture of a girl that wasn't me, but there on her wall was a new photo album titled "Jayden Andrew" but instead of some other little family it was MY family.

She had a description that said something like "This was the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. My son, Jayden, was born at 32 weeks stillborn."

Then this horrible woman used pictures of MY SON. My sweet Kellen. I was confused and wanted to throw up. I wanted to find this person and figure out what caused them to realize that there are some things that are beyond sacred. There are some people who experience things that are too pure too even joke about, let alone lie about and try to steal.

Confused at how she thought she could pass off my pictures as her and my son as her baby, I clicked on more of her photos.

My mind was further blown as I see tons of pictures of ME AS A CHILD. This woman had completely hacked my whole facebook!! (which is set to private..confused).

Shortly after I saw this, she used my facebook to update and repost an old picture of my ex-boyfriend, Jamie. I don't understand this but I quickly reset my password and changed all my privacy settings so you can't logon to my facebook from any computer but my own. I also changed my blog privacy settings to protect my pictures from being stolen.

(Obviously a lot of good has come from this blog for both my family and for other families who have expereinced loss. I did not want to make it private completely because I like to hope others can find-if not comfort-than at least understanding.)

Sometimes people can really disappoint me. (Like the mom I saw yesterday who spit her gum in the middle of the parking lot instead of throwing it away)

Luckily, there are far more times in my life when I am very pleasantly surprised by the goodness of people. (Like the teenager I saw collecting other people's discarded carts lazily thrown to the side and taking them back to the little gathering cage in the freezing weather just because she was nice)

Happy New Year, Indeed. 

Another goal

6) Be a good person. All. The. Time.